I Got Hurt So I Wrote this

You were suppose to cushion my fall Instead you were the one who shoved me down Trust, safety, hope and love I thought I had that with you I wish that I had no memory Of the words that were said I wish that I could forget The times that we shared If only I could just Walk out of this life Into the next Which I’m sure you won’t mind Why am I so surprised That I was the one hurt When I have always known That you have held the knife It doesn’t matter now What’s done is done My heart is no longer whole Thanks to this gift from you You salted the wound And turned the blade How much must I suffer Before I satisfy your Need to see me kicked Where I have fallen down It’s over, it’s done I know when I’m not wanted I know I’m not in your heart And you’re not needed in mine I’m walking out the door I bet you don’t even care But wherever I go I know I’ll be just fine

I'm not an artist. Sue me.

Omaigawd this is so cool!

Typing this on my iPad and its awesome!

Downloaded an app that connects to the blog directly and now I can blog from anywhere with an Internet connection!  

awesome

Exam Tsunami

Exam timetables are out. Fuck.

Look at it! It's like facing a freaking exam tsunami! less than 2 days between exams and two exams on the same day!? Brb, dying.


{Song in my Head}

~Do You Hear the People Sing? from Les Miserables~

Do you hear the people sing?
    Singing a song of angry men?
        It is the music of a people,
            Who will not be slaves again!

Hourly post starting now

 9.55pm

First hour of my plan for an all nighter.

Bacteriology, you're going down.

Wish me luck peeps!

{Song in my Head}

~I'd Do Anything by Simple Plan~

10.55pm

Finishing up on 7th lecture. Gonna start Lecture 8 soon.

Hopefully.

9 lectures to go!

{Song in my Head}
~Guys Like Potter from AVPS~

11.55pm

Running behind schedule

May need to speed up

I'm allowing 1 hour per lecture, but it is taking too long to finish them D:

{Song in my Head}
~Hold It Against Me by Sam Tsui~

12.55am

Whoo!! 10 minutes ahead of schedule!

But next Lecture has 69 slides!

AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!

{Song in my Head}
~Thinking of You by Katy Perry~

1.55am

Behind again!

Still got 14 slides left!!

I don't even remember this lecture D:

{Song in my Head}
~Twinkle Twinkle Little Star from Dead Space 2 Soundtrack~

2.55am

Back on track again!

Starting Lecture 12!

Also, the library closed and I'm home.

So that means I don't have to wear jeans (or anything for that matter XD ) to study

And I'm nearer to food.

{Song in my Head}
~Say Goodbye by Skillet~

3.55am

Yes! Ahead of schedule!

4 more lectures to go!

I can do this!!!

{Song in my Head}
~Alive Again by Matt Maher~

4.55am

Got hungry and made instant Mac 'n Cheese. 

Yeah, I'm gonna give my grandkids cancer.

But I'm a poor student pulling an allnighter. Case closed.

Good news is that I may just get a good hour of sleep tonight :D

I'm getting faster and smarter!

{Song in my Head}
~If You Can Afford Me by Katy Perry~

5.40am

Going to bed.

To tired to go on.

Just read through the final 2 lectures.

I think I'm ready.

I'll be getting up in 2 hours to further revise.

Good Night.

{Song in my Head}
~Better Than Drugs by Skillet~

Walking Down Memory Lane

I'm so surprise this is still here!

Surfing the internet with my horribly slow connection, I suddenly had the feeling of returning here. Reading all my old post made me realize how much I miss writing. And how long has it been since I last wrote just because. 2 long years has passed since I last blogged or wrote...... anything.

2 LONG YEARS!

It has been getting so busy lately, back then when I had time I would open Word and just let my mind relax and just write. I can't remember the last time that something I wrote didn't have to be graded. When did I lose my passion?

Today, I make a promise to myself. I will pick myself up again, I will write again. Sure, Uni life is busy, but, it has always been busy! 2 years ago, I would not let something like that stop me from writing, I have always found the time. I want that passion back. I want the old me, the more creative and passionate me back.

I want to write again. To the few of you reading, wish me luck.

{Song in my Head}

~L-O-V-E by Nat King Cole~

"Love is all that I can give to you,
    Love is more than just a game for two;
       Two in love can make it,
          Take my heart and please don't break it"

Rainy days

In my last blog I complained that Melbourne's weather was getting hotter and hotter and I was melting.

Well, it seems that Melbourne weather reads my blog because it has been raining EVERYDAY this week.

And needless to say...... I'M SO HAPPY!!!!

Yep. I may come off like a bitch for complaining so much but the fact is, if I'm complaining that it's too hot and dry then when it's the complete opposite like this week, YAY!!!! I'm not a TOTAL ass, just part!

Singing in the Rain, I'm singing in the rain;
What a glorious feeling, I'm happy as can be.

I love it when it rains. Not only does it make me appreciate the warmth provided by my blanket, the air seems so crisp and fresh right after a storm.

Plus, it gives me a good excuse to wear my boots! And jump into puddles!! I feel like a kid again~~ Well, MORE of a kid XD

However, I think the main reason why I love this weather is cuz of the cold. Coming from a tropical country like Malaysia, you would think I would fall apart when it goes below 20, but for some weird reason, I have always had a tolerance for cold weather, it's better than my tolerance for heat anyway......

Or it may be the fact that this is as Malaysian as the weather would get. Though I detest Malaysia's heat, I love it when it's wet! Back home, I've been trained to turn off the TV and internet during a thunderstorm, for obvious reasons. So, a thunderstorm means "No technology time" and I kinda like that. Rainstorms means time for myself, time for doing things I usually don't have time to do. Reading during the rain in my opinion is one of the best activity to do when it pours. There's something about the rain that makes whatever book I'm reading more vivid. It's fantastic!

Melbourne doesn't rain that often. Thunderstorms are rare. Sigh.....

PS: I got an email fromm by book site. They;ve already dispatched Son of Neptune. I'll be getting it somewhere next week!! LOVE!!!

{Song in my Head}

~Beauty by Brian Cox~

      "And it might,
           Be slightly different from the things that you may know;
                You can’t deny,
                     There’s something special when you see the night sky glow......"

Old Shows, New Books

This week was so freaking hot. I thought I was gonna melt into the pavement.

Seriously, it felt like 30 degrees out there. Not. Cool. And it wasn't the "Hot in the sun, cool in the shade" thing. It was fucking hot everywhere. I went out with a Malaysian-style thin tee and slippers and was still burning.

I wonder how I would hold on when I'm back in Malaysia.........

In other news, this month September is AWESOME! Not only did season 2 of My Little Pony premiered last Saturday, Glee is on and so is The Big Bang Theory! Along with watching Fairy Tail and Beelzebub, I'm not gonna get an work done for the next few months. Oh well~~

 Glee was AWESOME! Best opening episode eva!!! It boiled down Glee to it's basics that we know and love and Blaine out of his Dalton uniform and in bowties and skinny jeans. Grr..... And I want ALL songs in my phone stat!

I love the herd. MLP:FiM is not a show for snotty-nose kids anymore. I love everything about the show, it's characters, it's appeal and it's plot! Not to mention that the values and lessons theme did not completely overshadow the whole show. <3

WATCH IT!!


Also, I bought 3 new books today, all crime novels, two of which has medical themes to it. :D Robin Cook is responsible for my obsession for medical thrillers... But what I really want (and need) is Son of Neptune!!

Son of Neptune is only due next month (or more appropriately 2 weeks!), but to keep us on our toes; Rick Riordan had been slowly introducing characters from the book. That man is an evil genius, dangling that book in front of me..... I WANT IT SO BAD!!

Finally, WHERE IS MY POTTERMORE EMAIL!!! SEPTEMBER IS ALMOST OVER! WHERE IS IT!!!???

I'm dying~~

{Song in my Head}

~Never  Let You Go by Dima Bilan~
     

      "Cold champagne we forgot to pour,
           Baby now it's happened with us;
                We're dancing on broken glass,
                     Can't stand no more...."

I Miss Home

This is one of those times when I'm truly feeling homesick.

This festival has too many names~~

There's the official Chinese translation, Mid-Autumn Festival. Then, there's Lantern festival for all the fancy tanglungs children (and I) play with. But to me, the most appropriate name would be Mooncake festival.

Mooncake Festival!!!! I can't believe I'm missing it!

I want my lotus paste mooncake!!

Fuck it, I want to eat mooncakes in general :(

I miss home......

I miss my friends. I miss the food. I miss almost burning the house down when playing with candles and lanterns.

I'm gonna go eat my TimTams now.

{Song in my Head}

~Here In My Home by Malaysian Artistes for Unity~

"Hand in hand we'll march like blood brothers,
I speak for my people, hope we'll find peace forever;
May the road ahead quench my thirst for success,
May the road behind echo a song of the blessed..."

Of Changing Personalities and Idiots

(Was meaning to post this up earlier but........ I got lazy XP This has been in my drafts for so damn long...)

The University of Melbourne must be understaffed. No, I'm not kidding.This semester, I have 3 of my old tutors. And the worst part: they had the audacity to ask for my name. Sigh.... I'm a different person in Uni than I was in high school.

In Malaysia, I was bold. I was active in class, though not for the right reasons I admit. And I could TALK to my classmates. WHAT THE BLOODY HELL HAPPENED!!??
In Uni, everyone minds their own business, those who are friends stay in their own cliques. Some of the Ang Mohs so stuck up also. Sigh.....

At the very least, they're just looking down on people, not being too big of an idiot. Cuz the idiot disease seems to be spreading far and wide.

First we have one moron in the Norway massacre, now we have thousands of morons running throughout England lighting houses on fire. Is the world just filled with idiots waiting in line? (I think I'm watching too much House...)

The London riots can be seen as one of the most obvious decline in humanity. How can the people from one of the most advance city on earth behave worst than animals? Stealing and looting while blaming the government for all their problems? Is that the kind of "forward" thinking we need? Asses.....

Remember when Japan got hit with the earthquake and people were too busy helping each other and such? In Western news, people were curious why there was no looting or destruction going on caused by the Japanese. Apparantely, there's a huge respect thing the Japanese believe when it comes to disasters and unfortunate events. If only we could of learned from them...

{Song in my Head}

~Pork and Beans by Weezer~

      "I ain't gonna wear the clothes that you like,
           I'm finally dandy with the me inside;
                One look in the mirror and I'm tickled pink,
                      I don't give a hoot about what you think.

New Semester, New Troubles, New Light

I love Holidays

I love Uni

But I hate to go to Uni after Hoildays....... D:

Another thing I hate more than Uni? Mornings

Now combine these two and Voilà! It's now evident that I'm not having the time of my life now.

Oh Mornings.... Y U COME SO EARLY!!??

 At least it's not all bad.

Snacks were on sale for the longest time, I bought so MUCH!!

 Now I have tons of junk food to ease the transition.

*Munches on a TimTam while opening a bag of Doritos*

WHOOT!!

On a more serious note, I'm not just a person who only complains and whines all the time. The are reasons behind my discourse.

I may hate going to school/college/uni but I usually suck it up for 1 reason: I LOVE learning. I just don't like the way it's taught. For example: I have a gigantic interest in History, but the way Sejarah is taught in school killed it for the longest time. However, last semester, I took a course on Human Ecological History and enjoyed it immensely!

Here's the difference between the two subjects:

In Sejarah, facts were shoved down my throat. I was taught how to feel and what I need to remember. I only studied this subjact to pass exams. IT was the type of thing that you had no choice of the matter. Like you needed to study, like you had to remember it. And that was the root of the problem. Remember. Not appreciate. Not enjoy. Remember. Gah!

In HEH, however, students were taught the events and ideas and they would be up to our own interpretation. There is no right answer. I have even read up on things myself that were not taught in class, just because I want to know more! MOAR!!! Curiosity killed the cat? Rubbish! Curiosity is what drives you forward!! (It also helped that I discovered Hetalia at that time too XP )

"Never regard study as a duty, but as the enviable opportunity to learn to know the liberating influence of beauty in the realm of the spirit for your own personal joy and to the profit of the community to which your later work belongs." 
~Albert Einstein~
 

Learning = LOVE!

 

Right now, I'm doing a Theology course called God and Natural Scinces. Will blog about THAT soon.

{Song in my Head}
~I See The Light by Mandy Moore and Zachery Levi~
 
     "All those days chasing down a daydream,
         All those years living in a blur;
             All that time never truly seeing,
                 Things, the way they were......"

PS: Did I mention I'm currently obsessed with the movie Tangled? Cuz I am. Zach Levi is my current celebrity crush....... *goes off to watch Tangled for the 50th time*